Create to create. Nothing can start for you. It is time for individual uniqueness to create collective unity.
Poetry
“Undefined”
For the first time in a long time, I’m at a loss for words
I don’t know how to apologize or recognize I hurt your feelings.
I don’t know why I said what I said, or the way that it was formed
even the way it was forwarded
the way it was worded.
It wasn’t my message to go revealing your confided trust
justified disappearing
Love was reappearing.
Mine was re-engineered
connection seemed sincere,
no fear, no fear,
no fear, no fear
for the first time. In a long time. I am at a loss for words
I reached my limit of forgiveness based in self, and then reflected
a limited experience with the lack of motivation for explanation
emancipation from the figure I was made out to be
stop telling me don’t tell me right now I’m not who I’m supposed to be.
I ain’t listening this time honestly surprised that you can’t tell,
or maybe you won’t realize
because I didn’t want to realize but these eyes viewed the truth in disguise
Calling me perfect was a perfect lie
I caused this it was me this time.
Calling me perfect was a perfect lie undeniable flaws in my eyes
Opposing forces collide,
looking at you is like a mirror with nothing behind,
picking apart your roots, undeniably burnt mine
because now the fire is sparked
unhinged with my remarks,
burning everything I thought I knew about myself and others,
removing everything I thought I knew about myself, and bringing back everything I left behind.
The old me, said you can trust me,
but the old me was a perfect lie.
I’m speechless
I hope you hear this
I hope it reaches you if your grieving
I hope we both reconnect for the right reason
I’m sorry for what I said
For what I said
The way I said it
For ever getting you to trust me
I don’t expect to be forgiven
For ever getting you to trust me just to commit treason
“Pen & Page”
I feel the pen and the page out
I fill it all in the paper
Writing down my thoughts and motives a lot of them stemming from anger
Navigate through my cost of emotion the opportunity is often the bigger picture
I been trapped into observation though I want to be more like the painter
Not a stranger
to the discoveries limitless beyond human nature
To the benevolence beauty and presence and duty found in the eyes inside of the manger
And I’m finally getting the messages
Pen to the lad should be heaven sent
Making a mess of this has me questioning
all of the ideas that was causing me stress again
Like I ain’t preach crossed that river that led to this medicine
Just to realize the whole time I been looking in the eyes of a stranger
Yeah the eyes of stranger
Lookin for sense of identity though conformity got me feel like chameleon
Baby take a chance on this it be that 1 in a million
Take a chance on this you gunna realize exactly what u been missin
All of the details that u ain’t been seeing
All of the candy u ain’t been hearing
It’s more than 5 senses because perspective is perscription
And ignorance is bliss but knowledge is perscription
“Digest”
Attempting to digest my thoughts anxiety serving me nothing to eat
Shaking temptation to roll up a spliff no one should ever get higher than me
But stacking up pressures to grind up the dope smoke it jus so I could eat
Acquainting with snakes in the grass jus for another lost soul serving green
But you ain’t know what’s not seen
Every ounce of emotional endeavor the drop of the tear on the paper I’m telling you escaping reality is not the endeavor
To find contentment and peace this is only temporary pleasure
Bc I swear when that fade fades that high ain’t gonna last forever
Ain’t gunna last forever
It ain’t gunna last if u keep checking the time
Tell me what’s on your mind
Is it the endless assumption you gotta be something
From everyone round you without knowing you wanna be nothing
Nah you wanna be something
But can’t find the outlet or medium to fill with your subject
But what is the subject
Idk but it need personal discovery
Arts dark personality seem bubbly
Tryna tell me something
Sorry minds to clogged wit the ideas gone
Self serving bias leading me wrong
Now im on my knees now I’m praying to god
I want you to read between the lines of my thoughts bc this ain’t my story this an eternal cause
Losing sight of faith it’s coming lost
Because to talk what’s real give you a reason to be killed
And to preach what you feel is a reason to be feared
Bc knowledge is power and people think powers unfair
But if you was at the top would u use it with clear
Vision of what should be engineered
Busy listing victories in my own vision
Instead of appreciating the gift I was given
God given talent handed to me with a mission
To spread the word of love remember one idea if at all
That ignorance is bliss but knowledge is prescription